Loving you is easier then 123

Babe,
I love you so much and I am so happy that you posted your blog. I love it so much that I read you blog 10 times today and every time I read it I smiled bigger and bigger. I can't thank you enough for taking the time to write such a heart felt blog.  I know its been a little tough because we are not together, but it will be worth it , I know it.  I get scared sometimes when you don't respond to my messages because I think that your losing interest in me.  But I know that isn't the case, I know how hard it is to be away from everyone and when they come on you want to say hi.  I know you and I won't stop you because I just want you to be happy.  I am happy you said you try harder though, I promise I will try harder too.  I want to be that perfect guy for you.

It sucks though, it is so hard for me to be angry at you and I hate you for that =p.  I always want to say blah blah blah, but then when I start to talk to you I get so happy and I forget why I was ever angry and you suck for that.  lol It's not fair, just saying.  I love how big of an impact you have on me, I know your that girl I want to spend the rest of my life with.  I mean I found someone who I can love no matter what their flaws are and I love it.  I really think your perfect, your smile, your looks, the way you talk, the way you act, and all those great things you have to tell me.  I love every single aspect about you so I hope you can understand that I love you with all my heart.  I am sorry I say I love you and I miss you every 10 seconds but I really love you and I really really miss you, I don't know why I do it but it is something I always have to say I don't know why, but I hope you get use to it.  I know you haven't said you love me yet and there are so many reasons why I think you won't, but I will be patient.  Like these past months since we have known each other.  I mean I chased you for seven months straight haha, and I don't regret a minute spent chasing you.  It was all worth it in the end, I have this amazing girl who has given so much to me without knowing. 

I love the gifts you have bought me through out the months, but you have given me so much more which I am so thankful for which is why I won't ever give up on us.  I will tell you this over and over and over again, I love you and your perfect in every single way.  I love all your perfections and imperfections.  I love that your skin is dark, I love how your English is flawed ( it is so cute), I love how you eat as much as you can and not worry about weight, I love how we can be lazy together and still enjoy each other.  I love everything about you, I love how you only show your true self to me, it makes me feel special because I know trust me enough to be yourself.  I love it so much; I love the real you, I love it because I know your are the one I can spend the rest of my life with.  No matter how bad things get we always found away together to be happy in the end.  We always grew as a couple and never shrank.  We smiled so much this past year, ans honestly I never enjoyed myself this much.

Your the one I want to be with, every day I wake up and go to sleep with you as the first and last thing on my mind.  I might not be perfect now but I am working hard to become good enough for you in the future.  I am working harder in school, I am getting jobs, and I am looking for an internship while trying to spend time with you everyday.  I know you worry about my health, but I want to sleep late everyday.  Even if I am a little tired I want to talk to you until I cant open up my eyes.  I know you worry about my health but I am more worried about you, because you don't have many people to talk to.  So please don't worry about me I look so much worse when I don't get to spend time with you then when I get an hour or two of sleep.  I know it hard sometimes but please remember I am there for you no matter what. I will jump though fire to get to you and swim across oceans.  I love you so much, so please let me stay up to spend time with you everyday I know you want me to get good rest.  But honestly when I stop talking to you early I sleep later because I worry about you, I worry what your going to do alone, or if anyone is taking care of you.  I know your old enough to take care of yourself, but I have this nasty habit of constantly worry about your happiness.  I know your ok but sometimes I have trouble sleeping. Talking to you helps me sleep and it motivates me to become a better person.  I am sorry that I am dumb sometimes, but just let me sometimes. To me you have become an irreplaceable person, so please don't let me lose you.  And if for one second I start to forget or stray away, scream at me or smack me over the head because I would be the dumbest person in the world to let you go.  Don't worry though you won't ever have to do this.  I love you so much and I will always love you, so I will wait to hear those three words from your mouth, there is no rush. Because love can't be rushed you have to be patient and hopefully when that time comes I can bring you back so you can say it to me in person.

Love you more than ever,
Chin Fong
P.S. This onw has more words than your recent blog haha =p.
 Try to bet that =).

Here is your chalk board you got me schedule and meetings are written on it =).  I hope your happy.

A great gift

Dear Kirby,

So today I finally opened up your amazingggggggg gift, I feel like a jerk still because you haven't got yours yet.=( I feel even worse because I love your present so much and mine probably not as cool. But OMFGGGGG you got me so many cool things, I am so happy.

This is such a biggggg boxxxxxxx double my boxes size =(.  I hope you really like it.


When I opened it up I hope you saw howwww big I smiled and how happy I was, I really didn't expect sooo many things.  I really appreciate all the work and effort you put into it.

ALLLLL the cool snacks from Hong Kong you got me.  I really am happy because you got me so many good things.  I am sooo happy I get to try thing from a different country.

Here are some of the cool snacks you got me.  I am really glad you remembered my favorite candy( the one you introduce me to) lollipops.  I really want to try the chicken chips they look soooo yummy, but I am scared if I eat it now they will be gone in a hour haha. Oh so many chips and candy which first and then last, should I do the good ones first or last?   Gotta help me haha.

Then these gifts here are so thoughtful. Like the Domo bag for the camera you got me for your birthday.  Also the Domo puppet when I push the hand it has your voice.  The tons of pictures of you(already put them in my album.  Then the pen so i can write in class.  I also loveee the hello kitty graduate one because it reminds be of your graduation and how proud I am of you.  =)





But for me my favorite was the matching bracelet which said Misses you, Kirby G.  I promise to wear it 24/7 I put it on and haven't taken it off yet =).  I love it so much so so so so much.  I also love the mini chalk board with the days and months  I will be writing my schedule on it.  I already wrote my class schedule, so I can fulfill my promise of doing well. I also like the little Kirby G key chain it so cute and it has a cap =).  I really miss you so much and when you went to school ,I hope you go back again. HAHA

So THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU , for sending me such great gifts.  I really do pray you get mine soon I know you will love it, but I don't know if it can top yours.  I really appreciate all the time you spent and all those cute little notes you posted on everything so you can tell me things about each one of them.  I am so lucky to have someone as great as you and you don't know how much I appreciate each gift.

Thank you sososososososososo much,
Your happy dumb boyfriend
P.S. I love you so much

Every Time I Close My Eyes - Babyface

Love this song makes me think of you. I always thank God I got you I am so lucky, and your blog today was so amazing I'm happy you say you consider me as your future. I know you will be mine.

Hair cut and Uniqlo

So today was a longggg day haha. I woke up early so we can talk, I enjoyed our talk as always it was so nice. I can't wait to bring you back, it only 2 more months right =)?


Us last night, but morning for you.

So I finally got my hair cut today, but you said it was dumb because it too short, I don't think it that bad but yea I kinda agree. I went to Astor place it cost me 15 dollars not including tip. But it was better than the dumb Mohawk lol.





Ate at Wendys today haha ate the usually but added spicy nuggets haha. 

After I visited Uniqlo, I went to see Holly, Mike and everyone.  They all miss you a lot. Everyone keep telling me to fill out and application, because they want me back.  So funny but makes me feel good.  But so much happened  like Nobu is going back forever. Also Sean for visual is in Japan forever too.  Dexter left and so much more haha but you will hear more about him later.  So I went to cheer up Holly today and visit Mike they were so cool.  We hung out for 3 hours haha I help run with Mike, then Holly and I messed with so manyyy of the new people.

So many people miss you,  like Katlin, Gwen, Mike, Ivonne, Jeanny and Francis.  Haha they made me miss you so much more.


So we left at 8 cause Holly got off and Mike had lunch break, we went to Starbucks and I saw you favorite things.


Can't see it well probably, but it the Asiago Bagel.






Holly and I went to eat dinner after at Taco Bell and talked for an hour she was sad, but she say I help cheer her up.  Said I was the best son =). Then she ask how you were and said I better keep you, because so many people in Uniqlo liked you and I would be stupid to lose you. I agree and I said, not one second will I let you doubt me.  Then we did something that was so unexpected we went to Forever 21 in 14th street to visit guess whoo.......


My best friend at Uniqlo.

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Know it?

ITSSSSSSSSSS
dexter =p
UHHHHH so awkward for me and him but more for me. I was like your that guy I hated so much, hi and you know I hate you and still hate you. I also know you hate me more haha. Holly was dying cause she thought it was funny so not cool.

Any way the day wasn't bad I want to bring you back so bad now so they can see you.
=)

Because

Because I always post it, because I want you to get the hint, because I want you to rely on me, because I love you, because your the world to me and because I can't exist without you. =)
So have faith in me like always =). ( I know you do just reminding you so you don't stop)

Long first day

Today was the first day of classsssssssssss........ womp womp haha
But it was cool, my graphic design teacher is cool and I don't even have midterms and finals, haha.  Only take home test every class so cool, right?  The teacher also teaches calligraphy it was so nice, it was crazy and so pretty I want to write like that. So I can right you a really nice card, =).


I didn't take any pictures today sorry forgot phone batteries and I didn't want kill the phone cause I had to call you.  So today I went to give in my application for the business law IT center, I pray I get it, I really want/need to bring you back.  I misss you so much babe, its lonely here without you.

After I went to my next class which was a marketing class the teacher is really boring haha, but I really think this class is going to be interesting because I like marketing.  I hope I can do well in this class, the first homework assignment looks pretty cool, I have to go to a supermarket and find 20 items I didn't know about so cool because it is so different then what I am use to.

Letters to Kirby

I hate that your gone so much babe.  I miss picking you up from school everyday, I wish you can come back so I can see you .  Your even more beautiful now, when I saw you on skype today my heart skipped a beat.  Wow!!! You can't look like that or so many men will chase you. Haha no seriously lol.  Have confidence in yourself ,ok? I am so happy, you smiled so big today.  I love that smile, washes all the bad things away and makes me want to work harder.

So have faith in me I am working my hardest to bring you back.

Miss you so much
Love,
your baby
P.S. miss me a lot so you want to come back as soon as possible =).

Working towards our future

These past couple of days have been getting harder for me, I am starting to miss you more and more everyday. Lately I have been getting less sleep from the stress. I am just worried about you in Malaysia it seems like everything went wrong in one day. But we fight till we can succeed right so I'm not worried.

Me not being able to sleep thought you might like the sun rise =).

So yesterday I didn't do much I just worked on the website and ordered take out.


You remember the dumpling store on 14th we went to?  Here is what I ate bubble tea sucked lol.







So today I went job hunting, YEAHHHH so fun haha.  The job I wanted originally wasn't available, but they promised me it if anyone leaves so that is cool beans right ?=)

Chris and I went looking for jobs together at Lincoln Center  so we went to the building across the street from school and I registered for an interview to find part time jobs and internships, like I promised, have to go next week Thursday at 10 in the morning bummer right?

School =)

Then Chris went back to work and I visited Raph my older brother and chilled with a friend for a couple of hours.  And we found out together we need to go get jobs haha.






So he and I found an IT job (fixing computers) for the law school, we are going in tomorrow for an interview or meeting them, cross my fingers Xp.  Pays like Uniqlo and less work haha.
After I got another job offer by accident when I was joking around with the LC IT manager and said to fill out an application online because they are short on staff.  So I hope I get both it will make everything easier on me. 

Cause you probably miss LC and we haven't walked in the night yet.

I got home around 9 and cooked shrimp and lobster, which finally taste really good.

I miss ordering it and, you taking all my shrimp haha.






So tomorrow is the first day of class and as promised I will sleep early today so I can have energy tomorrow, sucks I didn't get to talk to you really today cause of everything.  But you promised me tomorrow we will spend time together right?

Here is my week schedule for school only Tuesday and Wednesday class

Love you and I miss you so much, I can't wait to bring you back, but babe you have to try hard, because you keep saying you don't want to be there, don't let other people force you to do things you don't want even me ok?  I promise I will help you in every way that is why I am doing all this.  So please have faith in this dumb dumb. He really loves you a lot and wants to give you the best life possible.

Love,
Your baby
P.S. Don't worry about me I promise you I will do well in everything and I will take care of myself just don't lose hope.  I promised you a good life and this is just the first step,  I miss you and the city misses you a lot.  Please forgive me for always being dumb but I care a lot ok. =) If I'm gonna take care of you and our families I gotta work hard so don't stress, I promised you and I won't break a promise. So keep believing in me even though it is hard.  I'm not just talking I'm doing everything I said.