Saturday, November 27, 2010

Thanksgiving/Black Friday

Hey babe,

This week has been has been pretty crazy.  Thursday was Thanksgiving we went over to Aunty Suzann's house again.  We had a lot of fun. We all came late this year traffic was terrible, we got there around four. I was soooo hungry I wanted to eat so bad but Nicky wasn't there yet and he is the one who cooks the most food so we had to wait for him to come lol.  When he go there we all ate, everyone brought a lot of food, there were a lot of choices, they even had crab cakes ^^ MMMMMMMMmmmmm lol.  I had so many things to eat I didn't stop eating; I ate till we left which was around 1:30.  For dessert they had green tea cake and a lot of other things, the cake was really good.  I drank for the first time in awhile with Steven, but we drank like we always did, I'm proud to say I still got it haha.  Nah but it was fun because I kept stealing Julie's beer and she keep telling me they have your beer down stair but it was wayyy to far haha.  So I keep taking hers haha, and then Steven kept pouring me wine .  My brother and Steven tried to play clue with my little cousin it was really funny, because he set up the game and he did it wrong but they didn't know so they played for an hour until I got nosey and checked on the awnser for the game.  Then towards 6 or 7 we played the family favorite Jenga.  That was fun I didn't knock down the tower once.  We hung out till 1.30 and Nick drove us home because my parents got tired and left around 12.30.  We spent the whole time talking about the most embarrassing moment of our lives so we can come up with something embarrassing for Phil's wedding.  Alex had the most most embarrassing story. It was so funny listening to everyone you would have loved hearing what happened to everyone.

Yesterday was Black Friday, we went pretty late because my dad got back from the hospital around 7.30. So they slept in late, but it doesn't really matter I didn't care much for the shopping I just wanted shoes.  We went to Crossing's, we got there around 5ish.  We ened up buying a good amount of things I got more then I usually get but I'm happy with my items I was able to get this year.I tried to find you clothes that you might like  jackets and bags, but I had no such luck.  I also went to look for Uggs but the line was wayyyyyy to long and my mom refused to wait so I checked Nine west (as you recommended) but they didn't have your size.  I really wanted to get you something cool but i'm sorry to say I failed.  This is what I brought.
 Gap Sweater my favorite Military style. Love the big buttons and the neck.
 My favorite Kenneth Cole vest. I like it a lot.
 Black shoes for the winter because all I have are canvases.
 5 dollar Walmart shoes I actually like them a lot haha.
 And the Boat Shoes the one thing I came to buy I love them so much and the color is so unique I really like these.
Next year we must shop together ok, I will save up as much as I can so that we can have fun looking for your clothes this time ^^.

Love you,
Astroboy

P.S. Everyone asked about you they wanted know where you were, They also all cheered and said happy Thanksgiving to you it was super loud and crazy haha but thats my crazy family. ^^

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Thanksgiving

Holla babe,

It's Thanksgiving and I have so much to be thankful for I wouldn't know where to start and 90% of the things I am thankful for have to do with being with you.  Let me tell you its been an amazing year.  We have been though a lot and over came so many things.  I hope we can last forever and we can tell our kids anything is possible no matter how hard it might seem.  I am so thankful for such a great girlfriend. Who is patient and understanding, I am grateful because of how long we have lasted, even though it was hard we still fought through it.  I am thankful for all the time we were able to spend together and  extra we had(Trinidad).  I am thankful for meeting you and playing cat and mouse with you , even though it was a lot of work it made it worth while.  I'm thankful for so many other things.  I am thankful for our most recent surprise a couple days ago I can't wait, and yes I am super happy. I hope you have the same feeling too.  The past two days have been really fun, we talk about where to go I enjoyed that  a lot.  I hope I can give you more than what you are expecting.  I will try my hardest for you so have faith and put your trust in me ok =).

SOOO HAPPY THANKSGIVING,
ASTROBOY
P.S. I MISS YOU

Monday, November 22, 2010

Dreaming about you

Today was one of those days where I stayed in bed doing homework. Boy was it a long day, I was glad I was able to talk to you all morning, it was great being able to talk to you again.  It was fun when you kept hanging up and I kept calling you back. Until your mom came in, which ended the little game.  Once you hung up I went back to sleep so I could have a lot of energy to finish my work.  I dreamed about us, it was like I was reliving so many things but they were different in a sense too.  It made me remember summer.  I was the happiest this summer with you.  I thank god everyday because summer went by so slow, I tried to enjoy every minute we had together.  Do you remember the summer, where we went out almost everyday and I saw you no less then 5 times times a week.  Where we would spend the whole day in a movie theater watching movies from morning to night.  I miss when you would hug me when we watch movies so that you can stay warm.  do you remember who many movies we saw together.  Even when a movie sucked I was glad we went because we would talk the whole day about what we saw.  Or when we saw something good we would talk about it for days.  Or when we just spent the whole day in my house would would nap all day watch movies and law and order.  I would make you a grill cheese sandwich (haven't made one in so long) and for dinner we would cook together.  You loved to make your Caesar salad it was so fun cooking together, I wish we can do it forever.



Do you remember our shopping days, we go to Soho or fifth ave.  We would walk for hours going from store to store.  We would pick out a bunch of things for you to try on, I loved it when you found something you really liked, and i liked it more when I was able to give you that.  It made me feel happy knowing that on one of our future date you would wear that shirt or dress proudly.  Or how about when we were silly and when we tried on all the accessories.  I remember your silly laugh when I had the bow on with the glasses you couldn't stop smiling even though i was so dumb it was so great you were smiling so big.  We laugh really hard  .  I also loved it when you found something for me to wear, I know I didn't buy it most of the time.  But I honestly really like what you did choose, it just that I really wanted to get you things more because I loved when you got new clothes.  You were always the happiest when you got a cute dress and you would talk for hours about your new clothes. I know I always complain when I buy you stuff, but it was worth it to hear you talk and smile.  Your not a shopoholic btw, yes you do shop but you do know when to stop.

You remember our crazy fun food adventures. How many coupons we bought haha, we didn't get to use so many of them but thats ok, because we went to so many places.  One of favorites where the $1 oyster days and the all you can eat mussels.  I loved trying new things with you.  We always ate our fill every night, you remember the amazing bread at Gusto.  I can;t wait to see you again, so we can go back there thats my favorite restaurant because of the waiter and the food.  You remember that day we went to the Brooklyn bridge and we ate at kati after.  We were there for so long, I enjoyed everything that day one of our most perfect dates, walking across the Brooklyn bridge and then walking Brooklyn heights, looking at the houses, taking pictures in front of other people's houses pretending we live in them.  That cute neighborhood is so us, I know it is expensive thats why I am going to work hard so that we can live there one day.  That piggy back ride where we got the guy to take the picture and he took so long and kept messing up you almost crushed me haha.  You were so worried when you got off you kept asking if I was ok.  Haha you were super cute at that moment.  Or when we brought the ice cream and you wanted to take a picture but you kept saying turn it or now do this and it started to melt, we had to eat it as fast as we could.  We laughed so much that day.  Another great night this summer was Zenkichi remember the new 50mm you got and we tested it out everywhere.  We had a great time at the restaurant and had a new experience.  The food was so unique I wish we tried more. Then we talked around that area the whole night and we tried to get the blur with the 50mm lens, I really enjoyed taking pictures, I wish you were back so I can take more.

Remember the when we went to the natural history.  I was begging you to go to that one for weeks.  We dressed up like nerds that day.  We left a little at and we went to go for some  cake at lady M.  That cake was so amazing it was to die for.  The creepe was so soft  and fluffy and the cream was the best thing I have ever eaten.  We got to the museum with one hour left but we managed to go see everything interesting.  Remember those silly photos we took like fighting the bear or with the dinosaurs.  I wish we  had an hour more to play around more.  Then we ended the night with the dinner at Gyu Kaku because I promised you a graduation dinner there.  How fun was that night, we cooked our own food and we burned ourselves on the hot stream like 100 times because we were so dumb.  I enjoyed each of these dates and they each hold a special place in my heart.  I know we can't go back to them but we can make new ones and I will wait a life time just to continue our adventures.  We are no where close to done.  We just started New York and now we have to try the rest of the world, so be a little more patient. It is hard right now but I promise you I will love you more everyday.  Because its been really lonely in Ny without you and we're ready to get our baby back.

Miss you,
Astroboy

P.S. I love you no matter what, I know it hard babe but thats why I try so hard so you don't have to work as hard. I just want to show you your never alone.  Because I will always love you.

Friday, November 19, 2010

HAPPPYYYY BIRTHDAYYY TO YOUUUU

Dear babe,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
Oh I hope you can enjoy it so much.  I hate my self so much for not being able to celebrate this one I promise promise promise I'll never miss another one.  Oh man I hope your family can at least make you smile.  Oh and I hope you love the package I got you.  I know I suck at getting presents and I probably need more work on that but I pray you like this one, I know I keep telling you but I worked so hard on the card lol.  I hope its good enough to live up to your expectations (I try to be creative) I used up to brand new glue sticks and many hard spent hours, but those hours felt very rewarding to me because it was for my baby and I love to show you I care about you.  Your the most special girl actually person to me in this WHOLE WIDE WORLD so I hope you can tell ^^.  I had so much planned for your birthday this year because I wanted to beat the amazing birthday you gave me.  If you ask me one more time I will tell you what I had plan for you, but then it means I can't do it next year for you =(.  So I have to come up of one 2x better then the next year 3x better then so on and so on haha.  That will be hard but I will try suppperrr hard to make all your birthdays unforgettable.  I am sorry I didn't do it this year.  I hate myself for not fighting with you to come back because I wanted to see you on your birthday.

You want to know something? Did you know that your birthday was the most special day for me, not our restaurant week one that is second haha.  But you don't know how happy I was that you let me take you out on your birthday.  Even though my gift wasn't the greatest, I cherished every minute from that day.  All the time we spent talking you remember we got there 7.30ish and we talked till we were the last ones there.  It was so amazing, I was so happy when you loved your desserts and when you couldn't chose what to order we got 3 desserts for you to try.  I loved that night because your smile lit up the room and if you didn't notice I didn't take my eyes off of you for one second.  I wish you can be here or me there to continue our food adventures and so I can see your smile one more time.

Then for my birthday you really out did yourself.  Did you know that it was the first time someone ever did something for me on my birthday.  The way you surprised me the way you lied to me saying your coming from class but you were setting up to surprise me.  Remember who you surprise me and I was so happy.  You gave me the most unforgettable birthday ever.  Even though we spent most of the time in the morning/afternoon at my house I was so happy.  I'm sorry I didn't let you pay for lunch, because I know you wanted to take me, but I still was so happy with how everything turned out.  That whole day went perfect for me.  Dinner it was so great, you and my family when you guys are together I feel so happy.  You gave me a day I could never forget with the last present being the best.  I still have everything you gave me, its in a special Kirby drawer.  And did you know I ate half the cupcakes you bought me and I tried to save them for a longer time but they went bad and my mom told me to throw em out, but I refused and ate every single one because you worked so hard to make my birthday special.   You present was so cool I loved the camera I know I don't use it but its only because it is something I want for our photo's only.

I know I haven't given you the birthday of your dreams yet and I know one day I will be able to but till then I will keep on trying to think of new ways to top the one you gave me.  I wish you a very happy birthday and just know I will be there next year with you giving you the time of your lifeeeee haha so be ready because after next years birthday you will never top me again.  HAHA Love you enjoy your special day, please don't let anything get you down.  You have to smile so I know I can smile to knowing your ok, becuase when your not smiling I am sad and trying to figure out ways.  To bad I suck at it but I'll show you I can get the hang of it,

Happy birthday,
Chin Fong/ Astroboy

P.S. I love you, so so so so much.  More than anything I wish I could be there or you here anything.

HAPPPYYYY BIRTHDAYYY TO YOUUUU

Dear babe,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
Oh I hope you can enjoy it so much.  I hate my self so much for not being able to celebrate this one I promise promise promise I'll never miss another one.  Oh man I hope your family can at least make you smile.  Oh and I hope you love the package I got you.  I know I suck at getting presents and I probably need more work on that but I pray you like this one, I know I keep telling you but I worked so hard on the card lol.  I hope its good enough to live up to your expectations (I try to be creative) I used up to brand new glue sticks and many hard spent hours, but those hours felt very rewarding to me because it was for my baby and I love to show you I care about you.  Your the most special girl actually person to me in this WHOLE WIDE WORLD so I hope you can tell ^^.  I had so much planned for your birthday this year because I wanted to beat the amazing birthday you gave me.  If you ask me one more time I will tell you what I had plan for you, but then it means I can't do it next year for you =(.  So I have to come up of one 2x better then the next year 3x better then so on and so on haha.  That will be hard but I will try suppperrr hard to make all your birthdays unforgettable.  I am sorry I didn't do it this year.  I hate myself for not fighting with you to come back because I wanted to see you on your birthday.

You want to know something? Did you know that your birthday was the most special day for me, not our restaurant week one that is second haha.  But you don't know how happy I was that you let me take you out on your birthday.  Even though my gift wasn't the greatest, I cherished every minute from that day.  All the time we spent talking you remember we got there 7.30ish and we talked till we were the last ones there.  It was so amazing, I was so happy when you loved your desserts and when you couldn't chose what to order we got 3 desserts for you to try.  I loved that night because your smile lit up the room and if you didn't notice I didn't take my eyes off of you for one second.  I wish you can be here or me there to continue our food adventures and so I can see your smile one more time.

Then for my birthday you really out did yourself.  Did you know that it was the first time someone ever did something for me on my birthday.  The way you surprised me the way you lied to me saying your coming from class but you were setting up to surprise me.  Remember who you surprise me and I was so happy.  You gave me the most unforgettable birthday ever.  Even though we spent most of the time in the morning/afternoon at my house I was so happy.  I'm sorry I didn't let you pay for lunch, because I know you wanted to take me, but I still was so happy with how everything turned out.  That whole day went perfect for me.  Dinner it was so great, you and my family when you guys are together I feel so happy.  You gave me a day I could never forget with the last present being the best.  I still have everything you gave me, its in a special Kirby drawer.  And did you know I ate half the cupcakes you bought me and I tried to save them for a longer time but they went bad and my mom told me to throw em out, but I refused and ate every single one because you worked so hard to make my birthday special.   You present was so cool I loved the camera I know I don't use it but its only because it is something I want for our photo's only.

I know I haven't given you the birthday of your dreams yet and I know one day I will be able to but till then I will keep on trying to think of new ways to top the one you gave me.  I wish you a very happy birthday and just know I will be there next year with you giving you the time of your lifeeeee haha so be ready because after next years birthday you will never top me again.  HAHA Love you enjoy your special day, please don't let anything get you down.  You have to smile so I know I can smile to knowing your ok, becuase when your not smiling I am sad and trying to figure out ways.  To bad I suck at it but I'll show you I can get the hang of it,

Happy birthday,
Chin Fong/ Astroboy

P.S. I love you, so so so so much.  More than anything I wish I could be there or you here anything.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Saturday adventures

Dear Baby,

So on Saturday I got to see Jackie, Gracie, and Rui.  We went to eat Dim Sum, vegetarian Dim Sum it was different but it wasn't half bad.  So things were weird but most of it was pretty good.  Rui brought her niece she is sooo cute, she was super shy and every time we try to talk to her she hind her face.  Jackie said she wasn't shy when she threw a water balloon at her head last time they saw each other lol.  But it was nice, I help her with her chess homework because I'm a dork like that.  It was fun they talk about work and then we joked around a lot it was a nice lunch.  Then when we were leaving we passed a fair inside a church and Jackie bought cotton candy for her and the niece it was so funny because the little girl made a big mess and got all the candy all over her face.  And Jackie kept bothering Grace with the white part of the cotton candy, it was so funny she kept blowing on it to bother Grace and the little girl.  After Rui and her niece left and we went to the basement in Chinatown to buy origami paper.  We brought paper to make stars I was so angry I didn't have money becuase I really want to buy some too haha.

After we went to go to Ikea.  We took the Water Taxi it was so pretty because the sun was setting.




Sorry these were the only pictures I took because I had 15 percent battery and I wanted to make sure I had enough power to call you.  I took these pictures because I wish you were there to see it.  I saw this man cover the lady when she was cold u can kinda see it in the last picture  I missed you so much at that moment because I wished so bad we went together.  It's for free too haha I didn't even know that.  We went to Ikea to charge Gracie I pod and to go look for things for Jackie's house.  It was really fun we stayed in one of the example living rooms it was so pretty I decided that brown walls are really pretty.  I wish we can paint our house,decorate it and design it.  So I have to save on the side for when you come back.  Ok I want to make you the cutest room with little pictures of me and you and your friends and all of your your walls.  Anyways they tried to get me to eat the meatballs because they say it was amazing but I didn't to save money and because I felt bad and I didn't want to eat when they couldn't.  We had fun in Ikea we hid in the closets and we tried out Jackie's favorite chair, we have to get one it soooo comfortable. We had ice cream at the end though only a dollar haha so it was ok to spend.  After while we were waiting for the water taxi back we found out Gracie had to go to Dale's baby shower.  We tried really hard the whole time to  convince her not to go because she didn't want to but she felt bad if she skipped. Jackie and I came up with a million excuses because Jackie and I didn't want to wait for her while she was at the baby shower haha.  When the boat arrived we walked to find a J train but it was closed so we kept walking.  We found a CVS and bought this Giant bear for Dale's baby.
Haha looks so wrong looks naughty didn't mean to do that I wanted to show you how big it was haha. Only $20 it was so cheap but it feels cheap to it was that or diapers haha and diapers were more expensive.  So while we were going into the subway Jackie and I were able to convince Gracie not to go but I had to bring the bear home until I could bring it to Uniqlo so I have a giant bear in my room staring at me when I sleep now haha.  It was a fun day I hope you come back soon so you can hang out with them they are really fun to be with and I know you would love them.  I missed you the whole day because Jackie and Grace are so close I felt left out, I wish you were here so bad.  I will save up as much as I can and work more hours if possible so that you can come back and go on a trip with all your girl friends ok =).

LOVE YOU SO MUCH,
Astroboy

P.S. Miss me a lot too and I will see you soon. MWAHHHHHHHHHH

Monday, November 15, 2010

Missing you more and more

Hi babe,

I hope your weekend at your grandma's was a good one.  It's really boring here when your not home because I have no one to talk to.  It sucks your more busy now, but I understand that you want to have fun so go out and enjoy yourself^^.  I just wish you were here enjoying yourself more.  I miss the summer where we would relax and go to different places in the city, I kinda wish I wasn't such a dork who loved taking naps, because I wish we explore the city more.  But honestly I really did enjoy those naps and lazy days they were the best so I don't regret a thing.  But that means we have to do all the things we haven't done in the future.  I have been thinking so much about us because it the only thing I do these days haha.  But I am so glad we met each other and went through all these things it was truly an amazing experience and I hope it only gets more exciting haha.  My sister and brother ask so much about us like it was a Korean soap their dorks, but I'm happy I got someone to help cheer me up when I miss you.  They say things like you have to be happy so you can work hard and marry Kirby or other things that would make you say stupid.  But it's a great thing what you and I have I only hope I can be more for you so you can smile real big in the future and be happy with the way life turned out.  I have been trying my hardest to make and save up every penny I make to keep my promise about coming down and seeing you,  I hope I can save up more money so we can go some where special just you and me for one week. I also hope I can show your parents how much I love you and how much I am willing to do just to keep both you and your family happy.  I really do wish we can get married in the future and do all those things I promised you.  I do want to see the whole world its always been my dream to travel the world, and what better then to do it with the person you love. Right? I mean we can go to so many places and see some of the most beautiful scenes, try all types of food, good ones, pretty ones, bad ones, nasty ones, ones that us stomach aches haha.  I want to do it all with you go to beaches, go hiking and even skiing.  I wish we can do all those things, Right now I know there are a lot of things you want to do and I am not stopping you but I want to be included in those plans.  I don't want to feel left out I hate that you don't want me there sometimes it hurts be that I can't be there to experience those things with you.  I know I am still a student but that's why I say I could study abroad.  I will still graduate on time just I will be in where ever for a semester.  So try to understand how bad I want to be there with you if you decide to go to London I want to go too, New Zealand Ill be there, the poorest part of the world I will be there.  I don't care where babe I just want to be there with you so please let me.  But don't let me your dad or anyone stop you from ever going to a place you want ok? Don't regret anything, you always have me, if you want to go somewhere I will save up every penny and I will help you.  I promise.  I know a lot of things I tell you things that sounds like bs but you know I would do anything for you no matter what and no matter the cost.  So please have faith in me, I really want to show you I can do anything its for you.  So try for me to no matter how much pain in the ass it is.

Love you,
Astroboy

P.S. When you come back we will get you an apartment for yourself ok.  But we must go to Ikea and shop together for all those cool things ok.  I would love to shop with you  and build all those tings together. You and I paint your room haha and I will cook for you after a long day of work and we can drink hot coco and watch a movie. To me that is a perfect day with you. So hurry back and I'll hurry down there to show your family I can be that guy. ^^
I love you so much, more than the world

Thursday, November 11, 2010

I know Im suppose to be sleeping so this will take 1 second. I love you so much and there are so many things I miss about you I can go on for ever talking about things I miss.  So Miss me a little because I can assure you I will miss you 100x the amount you are no matter how much you miss me.  So have fun at work and have fun at your grandma's. I will be on the phone with you so much so be careful haha.

Love you baby
Astroboy

Monday, November 8, 2010

Happy I got to speak to you

Hey babe,
 I'm so happy we finally got to talk.  I was so happy to hear how great your trip was.  I was even more happy that we had the chance to talk.  You don't even know how happy I am that you and I finally got to speak.  So I really really really want to see you.  And I was planning to visit you in December.  I know it doesn't seem like I can and making that much money right now looks hard but I promise you I will make it no matter how impossible it might seem.  I will see you ok, I made you a promise right? I will think of something ok. I promise you I will get there no matter what. So I can see you and make you smile(you probably make me smile more).  I know you scared of your parents meeting me and trust me I am 10x more scared.  But if I can make the money I hope it can show you, that you can put your trust in me.  I wont fail you ok. I love you so much baby.


Miss you,
Astroboy

P.S. can't wait to see you in the morning, sorry for really bad post tired and I think I might have repeated my self like 3 times lol.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Stress and no rest because I miss you

=( babe,

This has been the worst week I have had in so long.  I wanted nothing  more then talk to you. I have never missed you so much.  This week has been my hell, been trying so hard to deal with my loneliness but what ever I do doesn't work.  I was so bummed out even before you left and it only got worse when I didn't get the chance to say good bye before you bored your flight. I wanted to tell you to have fun and take pictures so it felt like I was there with you.  I tried calling you over 20 times before your plane took off but I guess you had to turn off your phone.   I was really angry at myself the whole night because I told myself to give you 5 more minutes so you don't get bothered when you were in customs.  But I hope your at least having fun right now so one of us can be smiling.  I know you want to travel the world like me so I hope your trip is full of smiles and laughs, but at the same time I can't stop wishing you were here with me. It's really hard to get though a day with out you, so I did a lot of things we loved to do to try to bring some happy memories.  

Like yesterday after class I went to Popeyes because I loved eating the mash potatoes with you. I remember they use to be your favorite.  That was the only time I smiled yesterday because I kept thinking about us walking around and stopping by a fast food place to get mash or  a small bite to eat before dinner.  I remembered you giving me a bite and eating the rest for yourself. I always wanted another bite, but I was so happy to see you smile I thought it was better that you smiled.  
It's crawfish (their like mini lobsters).  Mash potatoes our favorite, and one of the best biscuits in the world.  It was buttered so well it had the perfect amount of heat coming out of it. It was so moist and just melted in your mouth.
Your favorite mash.
That was nothing compared to today at work I was the only one most busy I ever was. But nothing helped no matter what I did I couldn't stop thinking about you.  I had to install computers with the two screens.  
this is two monitors hooked up to one desktop.  Do you see the pictures, I really think it is cute.  Our blogs look really cute side by side.  I really want to get make you a dual screen computer when you get back so you can edit pictures on one screen and talk to me in a another screen.
I am learning as much as I can because I never want to not be able to fix your computer again, like when your audio card wasn't working on your computer, I figured out why too right now.   But the guys at work are teaching me how to make a computer from nothing, so when you come back I will make you your own person computer for photo shopping and you can drag from one side of the screen to the other.
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Omg I just missed your FB F@*$ !!!!!! =(
I tried to spend time with Raph this week to try to cheer me up but I was still so sad.  But I am happy because he tried really hard to make me smile.  He is a good older brother and sister even though they not my real ones they really takes care of me.  I hope you can meet him for real this time.  I'm happy for him because  on Friday he finally got a date.  Soooo cool right, I'm really happy for him because his last girlfriend really hurt him and he was so scared to date for so long.  I'm so lucky I have you.  They said I look so sad this week but I try really hard to cheer up so you won't be angry at me for always being sad when I  am with them. 

So yesterday (Friday) I hit the lowest point of my days without you. I was so sad almost to the point where I felt like I couldn't make the day without you at all. I tried so hard to cheer up but it really is hard to go without talking to you.  So I got out of work around 5 and I sad with Raph till 9.30 and we went to the cafeteria for free food so I wouldn't have to pay for dinner.  I trying really hard to save every penny now that your gone.
After I started to feel like shit you where gone so I walked with Raph and we walked my sister home to 65th street and then he took the train to go on his date so he left at 65th and 6th ave to go find a train.  So I walked to 1st ave with her because she lives on 65th and 1st.  We talked a lot about you because she knew that is why I was so sad.  Talking to her was so great because she listen to why I'm sad.  I learned from that talk how much I care and love you how I miss you so much.  I told her things like no matter what I did I had no pleasure in doing anything because you weren't here to enjoy it with me.  I was so sad with out you.  I walked so much about the things we did.  Like how when you where here I was the happiest person ever and all those wonderful days we had I took for granted because I didn't try hard enough to show you how much I loved you.  But I knew how much I loved you and I came to the realization that my favorite days were the days we did nothing but relax watch tv at my house and sleep.  I know it probably shouldn't be my most favorite thing, but I love it.  I told her it was like we were married and it was perfect because we were doing noting and I was so happy.  At that moment it was when I knew I won't stop fighting for you ever no matter what happens I will always be there to love you. I was happiest w because you were with me.  I was happy when I could hold you every night.  I was happy when we were watching the chick flick movies because to me our relationship is one and I like to think we will end up together like at the end of the movies.  I loved cooking for you, my favorite thing I did for you, because you really enjoyed when I did that for you.

After she went home I was super sad because I missed you 10x more so I took a long long walk home, I thought I would cheer up if I walked home and tried to relax and think about you and when we use to walk everywhere.  I walked all the way from 9th to 1st ave first and I found so many restaurants I want to take you to with not to expensive menu.
 Then I waked from 65th&1st-38th&1st street on this wrote I saw not much cool things I took a couple pictures.
 Flower store first thing I was and I really wanted to take a picture, the display was so beautiful and I took a picture of this one because of the stupid flowers I bought you last year for valentines and you kept making fun of me.


This is the trump tower don't know why I took a picture of this it was there I guess and I remember you went to the trump tower for dinner with one of your friends last year for restaurant week. So I think thats why I took a picture sorry none of my shots came out nice.  

Heres the UN, when I was walking past it, I kept thinking how the world is not separated and we were all connected and it made me feel closer to you.  I know it stupid.  I walked to 38th and then I walk a way I never did in my life by myself.  I walked a crossed the highway (theres a path) to get to the river by my house.  We have to walk from 38th there are so many pretty things.  
 Walked under a bridge to get to a river, it was the one bight place I walked to my hole walk it was like that light of hope in darkness for me.  I wanted to stay in herebut it was probably dangerous so I had to leave.
Here I took a picture of the bridge when I reached the river.  I thought NY was the most beautiful at night because the lights are of NY's hidden gem.  It's breath taking when you look far.
Its a cheap boat ride we are going when you get back.
 Do you remember here?  I'll give you a hint February 7th.  It was a date before we became official.  It was our restaurant week date.  This is by the water club, you remember I gave you a piggy back ride here because you were so cold so I gave you the ride so you can get warm when you hugged me when we walked.
 Heres the room we ate in, This was my favorite date we had becuase it went more than perfect.  And it was so special for me because you told me you started to like me more on our date and I smiled so when you said that.  And when I gave you the piggy back ride I prayed I could keep you on my back forever because it felt like I could protect you from anything.
The restaurant, you remember that you didn't want to go because you thought that we would have another bad meal like lunch and waste money also we were gonna miss our reservation anyways because we felt it was too far. But I knew you would love it so I convinced you to go, even thought that date was so expensive, I was happy for every penny I spent that day it was worth it from the bad lunch the great movies to one of my favorite dinner memories. 
Just looked real pretty.
Can't see it but a guy came up to me and asked me why I was taking pictures.  I told him to show my girlfriend how lonely I was, he asked me o take a picture of him so I thought it was funny so here he is was really nice and funny.  
Remember this bench we took pictures right here we had so much fun that day.  That was the day you came over so we walked and I spent time with you until you had to go to your dinner with all your friends.  

This day lol.

So thats what I did my past two days with out you and I am so lonely without you, I wish you where here with me so bad.  I guess I been feeling really down because you always promised me that you come back and every month you puss it further.  I think that why I am so sad.  I wanted to send everyday with you and it so hard for me to keep going days with out you.  And it hurts when your not really coming back on the days we talked about. So promise me this time you will definitely come back in February.  So I can take you to all the places I waled past, So I can give you a piggy back ride when your tired.  So I can spend days doing nothing but relaxing at home without(this is how I know we be a happy couple if we got married). I miss you so much and I want you here more than anything.  I am trying to show you I will do anything to take care of you, so even thought you don't gamble bet on me and I'll make sure you will win big.

I love you so much babe,
A lonely old Astroboy 

P.S. I hope its fun down there, Cause you have to go back with me. Miss me a lot ok, when we go back I'll make you shop until I have no more money left so I can see you smile so big.  Sorry I miss you message on FB. Sorry I didn't update blog sooner I wanted to have a really long one ready, but heres to just in care you come back for a check. ^^

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

5 Days Alone. Still Standing?

Dear babe,

As you get ready to depart on your vacation, I can't help feeling more lonely then usual.  Even though the past week was the least time I have spent with you ever since you returned to Malaysia.  I am so scared to be alone. This is the first time since I meet you we will go on so long with out talking.  I am super scared to be alone so you need to come back missing me more than ever.  I'm glad we spent so much time together the day before you left. It was a nice way to start my day and end your night.  I wish your trip is fun and safe, but even though your having so much fun try to remember me ok?  I will try to save up as much money as I can so that I can take my own vacation and see you.  I know it scary because of your parents, but it something I have to do soon before it is too late for us.  You know how crazy I am about you lol, even though it might be a bad move I ready to try my hardest to convince your dad I will be good enough for you.  Don't worry I'm scared, but sometimes we gotta face our fears, right?

So we can have more of these moments. Sorry for the same picture hahah but I love this one so much.

I'm sorry I'm always so clingy but it's because I miss you so much.  I am trying not to be as much as I am now but it is really hard.  I like the long talks where we laugh and talk for hours, those are the best.  Even if your not talking I am happy unless you owe me a talk and till 12, lol.  I know I want to get married to you I know it scary sounding but I think your perfect.  I don't care how much work it takes and how extravagant you want it.  I say I want to give you the best wedding so it cool with me, anywhere you want in the world.  Anything you want I will give it to you, I will try so hard to make it perfect the way you dreamed it to be.

I don't care how crazy you think I am, lol unless it restrain order crazy then I will stop haha.  You said you want to go to London I support that idea, but try here first where i can step back and help you when you really need me.   Then go to London I know you want to go real bad.  If you want to go I can't stop you but I'll try my best to follow you. I want you to enjoy your life with no regrets.  But France is so much more you.



I have a fun and safe trip this week I will miss you so much, every second your gone.  I will try to take care of myself without you here to keep me company,just know ill be a very lonely old man a very sad lonely old man
very very very sad lonely old man. HAHA I will miss you that much lol.  But I do hope you have fun and a safe trip so you can tell me all about it.  Take lots of photos too.

I love you so so so so so so so much,
Astroboy
P.S. Miss me more than ever ok when when your having fun. haha