I love you so much and I am so happy that you posted your blog. I love it so much that I read you blog 10 times today and every time I read it I smiled bigger and bigger. I can't thank you enough for taking the time to write such a heart felt blog. I know its been a little tough because we are not together, but it will be worth it , I know it. I get scared sometimes when you don't respond to my messages because I think that your losing interest in me. But I know that isn't the case, I know how hard it is to be away from everyone and when they come on you want to say hi. I know you and I won't stop you because I just want you to be happy. I am happy you said you try harder though, I promise I will try harder too. I want to be that perfect guy for you.
I love the gifts you have bought me through out the months, but you have given me so much more which I am so thankful for which is why I won't ever give up on us. I will tell you this over and over and over again, I love you and your perfect in every single way. I love all your perfections and imperfections. I love that your skin is dark, I love how your English is flawed ( it is so cute), I love how you eat as much as you can and not worry about weight, I love how we can be lazy together and still enjoy each other. I love everything about you, I love how you only show your true self to me, it makes me feel special because I know trust me enough to be yourself. I love it so much; I love the real you, I love it because I know your are the one I can spend the rest of my life with. No matter how bad things get we always found away together to be happy in the end. We always grew as a couple and never shrank. We smiled so much this past year, ans honestly I never enjoyed myself this much.
Your the one I want to be with, every day I wake up and go to sleep with you as the first and last thing on my mind. I might not be perfect now but I am working hard to become good enough for you in the future. I am working harder in school, I am getting jobs, and I am looking for an internship while trying to spend time with you everyday. I know you worry about my health, but I want to sleep late everyday. Even if I am a little tired I want to talk to you until I cant open up my eyes. I know you worry about my health but I am more worried about you, because you don't have many people to talk to. So please don't worry about me I look so much worse when I don't get to spend time with you then when I get an hour or two of sleep. I know it hard sometimes but please remember I am there for you no matter what. I will jump though fire to get to you and swim across oceans. I love you so much, so please let me stay up to spend time with you everyday I know you want me to get good rest. But honestly when I stop talking to you early I sleep later because I worry about you, I worry what your going to do alone, or if anyone is taking care of you. I know your old enough to take care of yourself, but I have this nasty habit of constantly worry about your happiness. I know your ok but sometimes I have trouble sleeping. Talking to you helps me sleep and it motivates me to become a better person. I am sorry that I am dumb sometimes, but just let me sometimes. To me you have become an irreplaceable person, so please don't let me lose you. And if for one second I start to forget or stray away, scream at me or smack me over the head because I would be the dumbest person in the world to let you go. Don't worry though you won't ever have to do this. I love you so much and I will always love you, so I will wait to hear those three words from your mouth, there is no rush. Because love can't be rushed you have to be patient and hopefully when that time comes I can bring you back so you can say it to me in person.
Love you more than ever,
P.S. This onw has more words than your recent blog haha =p.
Try to bet that =).
|Here is your chalk board you got me schedule and meetings are written on it =). I hope your happy.|