BLEHHHHHHHHH

Hey you bleh,

So not cool today jk, but I really really liked the talk we had today. I enjoyed it because we were so dumb and you haven't been so happy and dumb for so long.  Lets smile like that more often and lets act super dumb like that everyday.  I love you and I hope one day you will say those words too.  I will be patient but you have to understand that I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU.=p

So today suck because you called me during art and I wanted to spend time with you more than anything.  We used charcoal got me dirty all over haha.

We had to draw this thing its called a gourd. Its hard and looks like a green or yellow penis.  It look like everyone drew giant bumpy penis today. Haha

Anyways I got some good news guess my only  two grades for my Management of operations and productions class.  It will really surprise you.

I have two 100s, cool beans  right never did so well in school I hope it can continue so I can keep my promise.

Love yous a lot,
Astroboy

P.S. I wanna spend lots of time to night before you go away to your popo ok ^^.

drawing

 Heres what you had to draw. It took me 6 hours.

Heres the drawing lol we had to use the pattern not actually draw the thing.

Heres what I cooked for lunch. looks pretty.

STD & C: Study Talk Drama & Cook!!

Hey babe,

This week was long and pretty boring did a lot of studying for my upcoming midterms.  I have a midterm in Marketing so I spent a lot of time reading text books and my notes this week.  Yeaaaaaaa so exciting ^^......

But I was happy that once this week we spent a lot of time together on the internet talking, my favorite time of any day no BULL$%^! really is.  Well anyways this weekend was pretty productive I spent sometime  talking to you, studying, finishing up my Korean drama (really really good), and cooking ( needs improvement =p).  

So yesterday I decided to try making pasta with my own hands.  Bad idea, not trying again until I get a machine because using a rolling pin sucks.  I think I got a pretty good workout from making pasta haha.  I decided to make everything from scratch.  I made my own dough rolled it out and whatever else there was to do.  I also made my own sauce and filling, too much work.  

I was planning on making ravioli because I would really like to get the chance to make them for you, but I had to much trouble rolling the dough so it was thin enough.  Thats why all the instructions said to use machine.  ^^ Any ways the dough was way way way to thick it was like dumpling skin, mom spent all night making fun of me.  She is such a jerk xp.  Bet your laughing saying dumb, and if I am watching you you would have that super big smile on your face. So I though it out and used wanton skins, but was to thin but I cooked them anyway, they were not bad but I wish I had a change to make everything by myself would have been super cool.  I convince my mom to get a machine, but don't think I will bother her to buy it because I;m taking a break from Italian and going into Chinese food my baby's favorite.

 The dough so much work to make this ball, I think I have muscles now.

Here's what I ended up making because I wasn't to sure what to do with only 10 ravioli.  I am angry because my phone didn't save the picture of the sauce or the ravioli.  

Anyways spent today returning a dumb blanket and studying.  Wish you were here to keep me company while I study, like back then when you were here.  I miss studying together, or writing your essays...... lol  I actually enjoyed doing that because I got a big kiss when I finished it and my baby was the one acting sticky ^^.  

Love you,

Astroboy

P.S. Sorry for not picking up this morning I was passed out, just letting you know for the future phone calls wake me up not Skype because laptop isn't loud enough =p.

Happy I'm In love with my best friend

I'm so lucky I have such an amazing girlfriend, who I can talk to all night and all morning.  I love how we are always talking, I wish we can do this forever so I can smile everyday like I am right now.  Your my girlfriend and my best friend I love you more than anything or anyone. I hope we can be like this forever ^^. Mwahhhh

cooking day

Hola babe,

Today I went out a little today but I spent most of the day studying uhhh, I can't wait to be done with school because there is so much stuff to memorize.  Haha I hope I will do well on the test. so I can show you I really am trying my hardest.   Then next week I have a Chinese test, don't worry I started to go for help, I met with my teacher this Thursday and we spent 35 mins after class learning the stuff I don't know, still a little confused but hopefully I can get it. If I do well on Chinese I will be the happiest person in the class because I am one step closer to showing you I really want to learn for you ^^.  

Also today after studying my mama and I cooked together, because I wanted to learn how to make her pasta.  It is vegetable pasta its really good and simple.  you would like it because it only takes a few minutes to cook haha and you don't have to wait for ever.

 Here are some of the vegetables I had to cut.  We were missing tomatos so I had to go out and buy some for the dish haha pain in the butt lol.

We made this real good and simple fish it taste amazing.  You don't like fish right? well I'll make it any ways and see if you change your mind haha

here is the pasta I tried to make it look a little nice, because I am practicing for when you come back I want to serve you the most beautiful dishes.  First time my pasta was really good haha, hopefully I can keep it up so you can finally say you like my pasta. ^^

Miss you a lot,
Dumb Dumb

P.S. I love you so so so so so so much ahaha

Hey babe,

Today wasn't what I hoped it would be at all.  I really hurt you didn't I, I'm sorry.  I know shopping is the things that makes you happy thats why I always want to know what you bought or look online for things for you.  Today what I  said came out wrong and I am sorry for that, please forgive me.  But if you don't curse me out until you do because I don't want any bad feelings between us.  To me you have become everything and when ever you are upset I am down and when ever you are happy I too am happy.  I wish you knew how much joy you have brought to me in the past year.  I know your angry still at me because you don't want to talk, it's ok I deserve it for being a jerk.  But I will keep trying until you forgive me because I love you and because love is all about patience and understanding.

Today I went out to see Eric before he left for his trip.  We went to the K-town restaurant that Jackie too me to. The BBQ is ok not that good, but I wish you were there because I still owe you a BBQ because last time we ate other things when we wanted it.  So come back so I can treat you to a big BBQ meal and watch you smile.

 Here is the food it was ok, yo didn't miss a thing I have to find a good one you would love.

Here is the wrap no rice, they didn't give rice with the meal and I didn't feel like ordering it haha.  I wish you were there you would have made me and I would have actually been fully.
Eric is doing well and i didn't know he was so well.  I hope I can do well soon also.  I wish I had that luck, but I am happy with mine because I met you and made so many good memories.  I wish we could make more.

After dinner he took me for ice cream by his work, its on 20th and 6th ave.  You would love it so much the ice cream is out of this world.  This is a must when you come back I added it to the list don't worry haha. Oh and it so cute the design.

 Heres the icecream, Eric gets discount so he paid for it.

 Eric and I love the back it so cute haha. I know you don't like black and white.

Here is the ice cream its a Ferrero Rocher the chocolate ball in gold foil.  It taste exactly like it haha.  We said bye after.  It was fun I hope to see him again because he is a good friend I would like to keep.

I spent the whole day missing you.  I really miss you a lot.  I wish you were here so bad, everyday I spend thinking about those great days.  I'm happy we had so many, everyday I will think about your smile so I can work harder.   So have faith in your dumb dumb he is trying hard to show you he can take care of you.  I am watching this Korean drama when ever you sleep, and it makes me miss you when the guy hold the girl or kisses her.  I miss holding you everyday.  I hope you miss me too.  I will save up all my money to bring you back and show you in person that you can trust me with your future ^^.

Love you and mis you more everyday,
Astroboy

P.S. Better like my surprise gift this time, I don't know what to get yet but I will find something with my heart.  I hope it makes you smile big.



My favorite person in the world and one of my favorite memories I wish I can take you some where new this year.

Dear Kirby,

Sorry I made so many mistakes today like not supporting you, then that talk about the bad thing, and not calling you at 10.30 like I said I would (I do have an excuse but I won't give it, because I should have let you known and I am sorry). I am happy you found the shoes you like, I been looking to replace the pair you love so much because you said you couldn't find any.  I wasn't angry at you for spending money, promise I wasn't.   I am worried you won't have the money to go on the Thailand trip that you want to go on so bad.  I know you want to go with your friends, so I wanted try to convince you to save your money.  Your old enough and I should tell you things like this, I am sorry for that babe.  I should have more trust in you and it wasn't fair of me. I don't want to be that person you get angry at all the time for, I want to be that person you can smile with everyday.I should have been more understanding because you felt bad about spending the money already and I made you feel worse.  I am sorry for ruining your happy moment.  I wish I wasn't such a dumb ass and would have realized how you wanted to me to smile for you then.It is hard to break that habit and you are trying i know you are.  But to be honest with you, I hate how you found a new place, not because you will buy more things.  I hate it because its another reason for you to stay, another reason I might not have the chance to spend Christmas with you.  Each time you find a thing to love in Malaysia I am more scared that I might lose you for a longer time.

 Today when you told me the bad news.  I knew before you would say it, I was just hoping  it wasn't true.  It really scares me a lot how much your dad won't let you leave.  I tried to give you reasons but they weren't good enough, I know it but I am desperate.  I just wanted you to understand that I wouldn't let anything happen to you.  I promised you I would always be able to take care of you.  I promised I would never rely on anyone but us, I know I have nothing to show for it and it sucks.  I know the only way for you to believe me is to show you, but I'm scared no matter how hard I try you won't have faith I could do those things for you that why I kept telling you those dumb things. I know I didn't start to work and we need the money. But I am happy because I get to spend more time with you. But your right I need to start working soon and I will go and talk to him If no one calls me next week.  Please just have faith in me, I promise you your dad won't hate me. Have faith in me even though my future is uncertain.  I know your sister and her husband had it tough, but I won't let us have that same fate.  Understand that they are different people than we are and they were under different pressures.  I might be in college now, but I promise you I will get a job that pays well and you won't need to worry ever about money.  I promise you I will be able to make you smile and you can shop all you want.  And I shouldn't have said that you need a man who makes good money today, because I know you think it means that you love money. But I wasn't trying to say that, I want to say it like I can be that man, I want to be the one to take care of you; always, so that you never have to worry about anything. I know I can always be there for you, your dreams are my dreams and I will make all of them come true.  So even if your dad won't let you come back, just let me bring you back for a little like I promised you and let me show you I can take care of you and you won't ever have to worry about money. ^^

Please believe in me, no matter how hard it gets I'll always be there.  I'll always watch over you, i will always protect you, and I'll always do my best to give you everything so I can see you smile.  So let this dumb dumb know if hes being a jerk and curse him out for it.  So I know I'm not good enough yet, but put all your faith in me, I won't let you down,  I promise.  I'll stay by your side like gum, because I'm so sticky haha I will never unstick from you no matter how many time you try to wash me away I'll be there stuck on to you ^^.

Love Always,
Astroboy

P.S. I missed you a lot today.