Alex's early bday and m baby long sleep which left me alone and lonely this whole day

Today was a busy day got up 6 but u weren't online haha so not cool jk. I miss you so much but you called me eventually haha so I'll let you go this time. I had to go to Chinese class, the go to law school fill out my w2 and other forms, then I visit Raph for 10 mins cuz you didn't pick up, but left cuz I had to go home and pick up text book. After I pick up text book I had to go to school and do a group project. Then had to pick up my art supplies then go pick up Alex, pay for his metro north ride take him to dinner with family, then I was finally able to call you haha. But I had a nice time with Alex today so it was cool beans.

 Alex's bday cake it raspberry chocolate.

 Alex haha he look so dumb

 awww so cute rn't they

 without me...... haha

 Dinner at Sachiko's again fried calamari with like a spicy ketchup sauce and like a cucumber lime sauce it was really good.

 Miso soup and salad(it like miso and spinach)

 Alex and mom got sushi 44 dollars for 2 so many choices, I am not a big fan of sushi but we must try it lol cuz so many things.

 Dad's tempura and they have a nice salad  it very light and refreshing really nice.

 This is my soba sop with duck very light not much flavor but I liked it.

HAPPPPY EARLY B-DAY ALEX

quick note

Dear Kirby,

I haven't written anything for you for a couple of days so I guess I will write something quick before bed.  I been watching you this past week and I have seen a side of you which I have come to really admire.  I see how caring you are and the amount of sacrifices you give for the people you love.  I really think that it is amazing how strong you are.  I know you feel like screaming till your lungs collapse but you don't.  But you try your hardest to put on a brave face and I am proud of you.
I promise you in the future yo will never have to go through this again and if anything like this happens again I will be there with you every step of the way.  I know I can't be there right now, but I am trying my hardest to be the happiest I can be.  If your sad I want to be that one positive thing you have so you know no matter how hard it gets I will be there for you to make you smile.  And I am so glad I finally got to see your smile yesterday in such a long time.  I know you have 3 or 4 days left, so I will try to keep my smile for you and try to make you smile back.
Also I finally got a job, told you to have faith in your babe.  I know you don't like to get your hopes up, so I will give you a reason to from here on out.  To believe that I will always succeed.  I know I it sounds like I BS a lot so I am going to try to stop saying all those things that might sound like it, so hopefully one day when I say something like that you will smile big for me.

I love you more than ever and I'll never give up =),
Astroboy

P.S. if you do come back we definitely must learn to bake once a week and I will help you even though you don't want me to because I want to be there always for you.  And can we please go shopping every week together so I can cook for you as much as possible. =)

Should have realized you need me, shouldn't have been so blind, didn't keep my promise and I left you alone. Now I cant help feeling like a jerk, I promised you everyday I would always be there and the one time you actually needed me I wasn't there.  I wish I could turn back time and realized that you were waiting for me to call you.  I was to late like am usually am, I walked home thinking you would respond to my text but I should have realized as soon as you texted me I should have responded with a phone call.  I waited to call you after 10 minutes and I now realize I was to late.  I am sorry please forgive me I know I really messed up right now.  I am sorry I not let it happen again, I know your angry at me, I know you still don't trust me when I tell you something.  I know everything I say will be bs from here on out until I prove my self. I know but I don't mind that everything I say isn't believable I will make you believe me, I am trying my hardest not to say things but to do them.  I know I have been saying a lot of things lately.  I know I haven't been there for you like I promised but please give me a chance to prove my self to you.  As we stand now I am still not good enough for you to respond and say I love you back.  I will show you babe, I want to spend the rest of my life with you and I know that its hard being alone out there.  But I will try to be there more often, more when you need me than not need me.  I will respond to all your calls and text and show you I can be that man so please one more time let me ask you to put your faith in me and trust me. I wont mess up again.  I promise you, I wont give you a reason to shed tears or feel pressured.  I will show you I am serious, so find it in your heart to forgive this jerk.  He is sorry and loves you more than anything and just wants to be there for you.  I miss you so much and I will keep working hard so that you wont have to feel alone anymore, then hopefully you can say I love you back.  

Dear Kirby,

I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU IIIIII MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU =).
Miss me? haha I am so relieved your popo had a good surgery and I am proud of you for taking care of your popo.  I know its hard and your not feeling well and I wish I could be there to hold you and to keep you company.  I am stuck here which suckksssssss but I will try my hardest to make you smile when your sad ok.  I really miss you and I wish you where here more than anything, I wish I could be the one to take care of you when your not feeling well. So I have to work that much harder to bring you back =).  I will don't worry about it babe.  I know its tough right now love, but I really admire  you because of all the hard work and care you are giving.  I am more proud of you than  anyone will ever be.  I am happy my baby is such a good person.  I know it feels impossible sometimes, when it does call me I will keep you company and I will help my baby smile or at least not feel bad anymore.  I rally want to be there for you, send me a text I will send one back, ask me to call I will call you back asap.  Please call me, I don't care about the money to me your well being is more important and I could care less about the couple of cents.  I told you if I can't be physically there for you I will try every other way.  I just want to make sure your ok, don't worry about me and sleep.  I can take care of my body, I have to because I promised you.  I promised you I won't die young and after you so you won't be alone (because of your evil palm reading haha).  But you have to promise me you will take care of yourself and you if you feel a little dizzy you will rest.  Like you told me you can't take care of someone if your sick.  So make sure your ok.  I am happy I have such an amazing girl friend and I brag so much about my baby.  I love it haha it makes me soso happy.  I am happy you contacted me when you weren't feeling well,  I continue to try my hardest to make sure your not alone.  I promised you right=)? So keep depending on me when you need someone I will be there and I will do anything to see you smile.  Ok so try to rest today and if we don't talk today its ok you just owe me 6 hours of talk time next time lol=) and a super big hug when you get back to the city.

I love you,
Astroboy

P.S. finally finished my resume after 3 weeks and I hope I got the job today so I can make money for us.

Thankful for the past, present and future all because of you

The longer we are together the more worried I have become because everyday I am more sure I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Its not a bad worry, more of can wait to start a life worry.  

Today and yesterday I spent all day worried about your health, because you were throwing up and feeling dizzy, the first time you told me you had low blood pressure I didn't think it was so serious.  But after yesterday I spent a lot of time on the internet, so that when you come back I can be prepared for any situation (Hopefully noting) and to learn anything I could so that you know you can be in good hands.

You made me happy today when we talked about buying tickets for your return ohhh boy I can;t wait till December kinda suck not your B-day but its what you want and I promise to make you happy. But I am really happy we talked about it can't wait, like a little kid on Christmas.

Finally thank God your grandma's surgery went well, now I wish for her speedy recovery and for her to keep her good health.  I saw how much she cared about you and made me smile because it made me think of my grandparents.  Your luck you have her still I wish I had mines, cherish every moment babe.  But I don't need to tell you you know.

Love you,

Astroboy

P.S. wanted to post this fb status I wrote a while back

"Its really amazing what can happen when you fall for someone. Its amazing how much you would sacrifice for them. Its amazing how you will change for them. But what is most amazing is that feeling they give you, its that feeling of completeness. Don't lose that feeling or that person if they make you feel like your special. =)"

street fair

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empenada

Gracie and corn

Jackie and guess what drink
your favorite carrot drink

a couple who got married today play games in the street fair how cool haha.

Mozzarella sticks  the tomato sauce is from Italy.

OMGG it is potato chips it potato they cut up and stick on stick the fry it how cool.  and then they put flavors. on it.

the stand

stole pic from friend cuz I forgot to take pic

dessert store

me wearing ur shirt u bought me =)

Shopping day All About the Kirbs =)

SO today I woke up real early for my baby, I really want to get you a present for our month/ 1 year meeting anniversary. I went to Soho to buy you clothes that you like went to so many different stores and took pictures to see if you like them. To bad your internet wasn't working so I had to guess lol. Should have shopped Zara for you but I chose H&m because I thought you tell me to go there. I wish I went to Zara instead and bought you the things I liked, haha so mad I messed up babe. But I did get you one surprise gift I hope you like it but I doubt it. So you have to show me more examples of clothings you like so I can get you more things I am happy that you liked the clothes I took pictures of though. I walked till 12.30 looking for items, then I went into Uniqlo to say hi to everybody and ran into Jackie. Cool beans right? So she asked me to go to the salon with her to keep her and Gracie company. I said yea because I wanted to catch up, Jackie and I had a really good talk =). HAHA Guess how much the hair cut was for both of them. It was 220 with out the tip. LOL OD right?
So after we walked around for like 8 hours from Soho to NYU to Union Square. First Jackie wanted fries so we went to five guys and ordered Cajun fries( I think) they were really good, you would love them, also we get all the free peanuts we want there. So Jackie filled the bag up when she was done with the fries. LOL Then we walked to the park where we saw the guy with the cool fuzzy motor cycle and the band playing in the fountain. I hope you remember lol.  Because we walked there a couple of times and they were real special moments to me =).  So we went to the dog park because thats what they do when they walk around lol, but it was real cute you would have liked it actually lol.
After we watched the dogs for 20 mins we walked to a store which sold puppies.  They were so so so cute babe.  If you were there you would have told me to defiantly get one when we get married.  You have to see them, they are so small and cute =).  We well also go here when you come back, I promise you you will go awwww.  So we went to Urban Outfitters after and went shopping for Grace and Jackie.  Boy can they shop lol, they make it look like we are nothing.  They bought a couple of cheap things like a tie and a formal shoe for Grace.  After Jackie kept talking about this tea place.  It reminded me of Starbucks but organic and more tea than coffee.  I got mint chocolate as my drink it sucked.  But Jackie and Grace got the drink like the one your friend owns,  PS your friends are so so much better.  I told Jackie we will take them next time ok =) haha so you have to take us all so we don't look so dumb when we ordering.

After the tea store we went to look for a Japanese restaurant we couldn't find it for 10 minutes then we notice it wasn't open yet,  it was under construction lol.  So we held dinner off for a couple more hours.  Jackie went to Filens basement and bought a Kennth Cole watch, haha just my taste.  Oh yea Grace like our watch, I brag how my baby bought it for me =).  Thank you again one of my two favorite things not sure if that or bracelet is better lol.  So then we decided to go to Sephora.  Found the brand name not the product lol because we didn't know what it was.  They went to look for colon and perfume.

After we walked to H&M  and I decided to buy you the two things you said no to lol.  So hard to shop for but it ok I am learning slowly right? =)   So after that Jackie wanted to buy bowls for her kitchen so we went to this really cool pottery place.  WE will shop here when we get married and buy a house ok? =)

Look at these coooool cups haha.

so cool right, looks like an ad or a book cover.

Then they decided to go to K-town to eat Korean food.  We went to a pretty nice place but was kinda pricey.  But it was really really really good.


Kim-chi pancake really good, but Jackie and Grace can't eat fish and meat lol.

Sorry it dark real bad lighting.
The appetizers yumm, had this weird fish thing but it taste pretty good, but I don't think you will like it.  Taste like meat ahha.

This is realllll dark sorry but it is Bipbimbop, spicy beef or pork not sure lol.  But it was really good yummmm, and then Grace got the most amazing tofu, the casserole i think but me and Jackie were like omg this is amazing lol.  Jackie got the same thing I ate just tofu.  It was really good, but the bill was 77 but they also drank 3 beers.  I didn't cause I try to keep my promise for my baby, I will try till I am 21 ok see if I can hold off that long for you =).  And omg they tip high lol it was $20 they do it because of Collen(the Visual Manager, her husband is a chief that why they said.)  Omg they said when she goes out she tips 80% of the bill how ridiculous is that lol.  Oh yea here are Jackie's boat shoes you would love them, Zara your favorite.)

Anyways after dinner I rush home to talk to you, to bad your laptop died, I miss talking to you all night it is so lonely now. I wish I could talk to you all night =(. But waking up at 7 to talk to you so it ok ill make it up later haha.

Love you,
Astroboy

P.S. (think about you the whole time and Jackie says hi and Grace)  BTW you have to shop with Gracie because you have the same style and with Jackie because she was part of visuals and she still got that talent with clothes.  Don't worry your still my number one shopping buddy, they no that haha.  I really missed you all day because it kinda felt weird walking with out you, don't get me wrong I had fun but it wasn't the same.   But they were fun compared to everyone else I have seen recently. I wish you were there you would love to be with them.  They are your type of people, they are sweet and Jackie can speak Cantonese lol.  babe they can shop lol Jackie paid for everything for Gracie it was like 400-500 (pay day lol) they really are the best of friends, you miss them feeding each other.  It made me miss you at that moment the most because you always did that for me.  I wish we can keep doing it =( I really do.  So come back soon and wish me luck on Monday with the Job interview.  I really need it for us =).  So I can be like Jackie when she spends money her BBF Grace lol.
Here the to u said no two.  I thought you would like it I was wrong lol sorry.  =)