My day spent missing you

Its been awhile since I talked about my day right?

Well I guess I can talk about yesterday's  school day. Boy was it long.  I woke up late for my resume meeting, but you know that already (cause someone called me late, jkjk) haha.  So I had to rush and take a quick shower and run to the train but in between all that excitement I managed to snap a couple of photos for you of Lincon Center because I know you miss it.  Anyways I arrived thirty minutes late but the lady was kind enough to let me meet with her anyways.  So we spent about an hour talking about my resume and what changes I could make to it.


After the meeting we set up another appointment for Monday. So not cool haha I wish we could have just finished it yesterday, It so much work you know?


Anyways after I got out I started to feel sad because I really missed you a lot.  I really wanted to go see you at that moment more than anything in the world.  It's because you fell asleep so early I think and we only talk for 5 minutes.  But as long as I got to talk right? haha

So I walked around and the I decided to go to Whole Foods to do my homework (marketing project).  Then I got this great idea to eat clam chowder because I really really really missed you and I thought eating it would make me happier and feel closer to you. But it didn't help, it kinda made it worse haha.  I'm so good at planning lol.

Our favorite soup and two diffrent breads the round one was good the other one... smelt like shit and had green things in them haha.

After I went home to go sleep because I promised you I take care of my body right? So I took a picture of my shadow like we use to take our couples shadow picture, but it suxs because it so lonely.  You have to come back aspa so we can have so many more pictures together.







Here are the flowers you like so much.
=)
I try to make it so you don't have to miss it because when ever you do I will take pictures for you, ok?





So after my nap I headed back to school (exciting right?).  Went to my boring marketing class and tried to sit through it.  It was terrible made me want to pass out like 10x.  After the long 3 hour class I went up stairs to see Raph, but he was way to busy playing games.  So I hung out with another friend who works in the office down the hall and we talked about our relationships and looking for jobs.  She really helped me feel better because she said told me I really love you a lot, it made me feel happy because if she can see it my baby sees it (I know you do, you always tell me).  We talked about a French restaurant which I have to get the name for, because she said you and I would have to go since we go on so many restaurant adventures.  From there on out the day just got better and better because when I got home you just woke up and we spent 5 hours talking .  I will cherish this moment so much because we laughed so much.  I hope we can do this almost everyday.  I love you so much I hope we can have our future together.  Everyone has supported me and I am lucky to have such good friends, because they remind me every time why we are so great.  So stay with me forever and I will make sure your always smiling ok =).

Love you,
Astroboy

P.S. I want to buy you a dessert right now like I use to everyday when you were working =(.

A dream

It's been hard, I know.  Wanting to be with you, wanting to hold you, just to touch you for one second just to remember that all of this was real and not a dream. Like some sort of fairy tale we didn't want to wake up from because everything felt like it was to good to be true.  This summer was unforgettable and to me it is a fairy tale, we begun our story with a happy begging and know we are at that part where things start to look bad.  But heres the secret almost always it ends happy because they take that journey and go through countless trials to test each others love.  They keep their faith and never giving up no matter how bad it was, so lets do the same.

You asked me like four times this week why do I treat you so well.  Its because I love you, isn't that what you do when you love someone.  You show them how much that person means to you, you go that extra mile to show them you love them.  I love you so much I would do anything and please don't be scared by this.  I know you don't want me to care that much about you but its to late I do.  Its like I want to be there for you in every moment, when ever your sick, sad, angry, happy anything I just want to be there to support you.  I know it stresses you out but please try to not let it stress you to much.  So even though I say all these things that seem impossible please try to have that faith.  Its along shot but I never failed or broke an important promise right. =)

A penny for your thoughts

This whole week has been filled with smiles and laughter.  We click so well, it makes me miss you more and more everyday.  But to  me that is the thing that makes me believe in we have a future.  Even though we are 12 hours apart and miles and miles away we are still able to laugh and make time for each other.  I know its hard sometimes, but no matter what I will be there for you.

Today my friend put up a status which I really want you to read and no its not the one about the bathroom, this is something I wish I could have told you from the begging.  So it is:

"If I never met you,
I would never like you.
If I did not like you
I would never love you.
If I did not love you
I would not miss you,
but I did, I do and I will." 

Well ? Really good quote right?  Your probably saying dumb in your head, but I don't care, when ever you ask me just remember this quote. 

We been talking a lot now more than ever and thank you for giving me more time.  I really think being up till 3 or 4 and waking up at 7 is worth it.  We get so much done now, like how you make me practice Chinese with you everyday for 15 minutes.  Face it I suck at speaking, but I am glad we do this every day no matter how embarrassed I might act.  For you Chinese is the most comfortable language and one of the most important traits you look for in a guy; right?  Well even though I am lacking in that skill, I am practicing everyday, so  that you can see how much I love you.  And thank you for not laughing and making fun of me, I really appreciate it, but its okay once in awhile to laugh if you want =).  Anyways other than speaking to you I am trying to work 10x as hard in class, because not only do I have to learn to speak but I have to learn to read and write.  I gotta be the whole package, thats how I feel.  I don't want your family to think bad of me because I can't speak Chinese and I really want them to feel comfortable around me so you don't need to worry about me forgetting the promise I made you.  I know its a little late but give me another chance =).  Only thing I want your family to make fun of me for is my height if anything lol. =p

On another note I am still working hard to accomplish my new goal, which is to make money off the project I am doing now.  I know your not completely satisfied with me doing this and your scared to put your faith in it, but I guarantee you that hard work will pay off.  I know it will, it is we have to be patient with.  I understand your feelings about getting your hopes up to high, thats why I am not.  And that is the reason why I try not to talk about it as much, like you and my mom tell me 24/7 don't tell me show me.  So try not to give up hope I met a couple people who have been really generous with their advice and past experiences so hopefully I can be smart enough to use this to my advantage.  

Way to bring up Baltimore dorkkkkkk.  Omg I can't get that trip out of my head for me its was the most enjoyable trip I have ever been on hands down.  I really hope we can do one soon with the money I saved up.  But I loved every thing we smiled a lot that whole trip.  Except that time when you were angry at me and I was stressing out to make you forgive me haha.  But it is like what Luther Vandross say's in his song: 

"I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else

I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart"

Omg I wish I played this song for you the lyrics are perfect because it would be everything I would want to express to you.  Except for some of the things like trying with another girl but if I did, those lyrics would be exactly what I would try to tell you.  So please don't ask me why I chose you.  I chose you because you stood out the most to me, you were the one who was real with me, and the one who made me the happiest.  So don't ask me why and why never others.  It's because I was waiting for you (so chezzy but could think of a better way to say your that girl).


So hang on a little longer you boy will become that man so he can sweep you off your feet and fly you home to where you really belong. Where I can tell you I love you everyday and kiss you every night before you sleep and every morning when you wake up.  To watch you when your sleeping when your scare and to hold you when your cold.  These things and so much more.  I wish you knew how much I love you. 




Love Love Love,
Your dumbest dork


P.S. I love you more and I hope your feelings get stronger for me everyday too, I'm not asking for you to love me just yet but to try.  It takes time I know but don't take to long ok =).

"Wish I was done with college, wish I was working a job that made money, wish I had saved up my money, I wish for all these things so then I don't have to miss you because you will be here with me or me with you. But life aint easy when it comes to the things you want. So I will be my own genie and make these things come true so then I can start granting all your wishes."

happy with you

Hi babe,

These past to days have been great we spent so much time together and smiled so much and laughed like we did when we were together.  I wish we can smile and laugh everyday like this, don't you? =)
 I am happy you always let me stay online with you till you fall asleep, just if you were wondering you haven't talked in your sleep yet =). I am the luckiest person because even though we are so far away we spend so much time together.  I really cherish these moments they mean a lot to me. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.  I can't stop smiling when ever we are together.  Thank you for trying to spend time with me it really means a lot to me.  I know there are a million things you can be doing other than to spend time with me online but thank so much for making that sacrifice. 

I hope you have fun with your grandma today I will miss seeing yo for a day, but I gotta share you with my babe sometimes haha.  My future Po Po so its ok =) so I can tell her all the things we practice yesterday and what will in the future.  I hope you will smile big when I talk to her haha.  =)

 I been studying hard hard everyday and I hope you will proud of me.  I am working hard still and I hope I can make some money before I bring you back so we can do a lot of things. I will make it so you won't have to worry about money when you come back ok =).

I love you,
Chin Fong

P.S. Have fun at your grandma's and one of our coolest pictures haha.

Random things

So I am typing this post because your typing one right now. =P
But I don't want to type because I don't know what I can type to make you smile.  So instead I amd just staring at you on Skype and looking at you haha.  You look so cute and so natural makes me think of the days where you stayed over my house and we just relax together.  Man those were the best.  =) I love watching you haha.  I love to watch you on skype even if your doing nothing, I love watch you when you sleeping(it makes me feel like a can always be there for you), and I love you so much I want to look at you everyday. 

• I am blessed with such a great girl who is always honest with me =).  I love that its SExxyyyyy hahaha, but I am really lucky and glad to have this amazing relationship with you.

• Yesterday I saw my friend and she said she is proud of me, because I am a lot more mature.  She says I am lucky to have someone who can help me be a better person, I agree.  Thank you

• I was so dumb yesterday I tried to call you from 1-5 haha when I should have slept so that we can spend more time together.  I should have got the hint when the first 10 calls didn't go through.  But I was hoping for some miracle because I really really really really wanted to talk to you.

• Yesterday funniest thing happened on the train this drunk lady walked in from another cart and I watched he walk slowly make her way down funniest thing in the world.  She first hug this guy standing from behind lol, guy almost shit himself lol.  Then she walk to the subway seat and she fell asleep on an Asian guy and passed out for a stop or two.  It was super funny but she smelled like beer it was terrible haha.

• Been thinking of an idea that will make you smile even more for the cafe.

•  Can't wait til your done blogging sooo bored by myself.

• Just wasted 5 minutes looking at you haha. 

• Want a lollipop soso bad maybe I will eat one of yours late, nahh I should save it.

• Cmells because I just woke p and didn't shower.

• Can't I am going to stop I rather watch you.

• Sorry for boring post trying to kill time.

• LOVEEE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSss

much

CAFFEEEEEEEEEE =)

I hope this post makes you say dumb dumb, I hope this post makes you laugh, and most of all I hope this post makes you happy.  I really wish this will show you how much I care about your dreams and how much I want yor dreams to be our dreams.  I hope you love it, I spent 4 hours coming up with these ideas for you.  I want to show you I can change my dreams too, as long as we can smile together everday.
I don't deserve you yet, but I hope I can prove to you I am wortht the suffering. So here it goesssss......

I call it CAFE LAZIBBY for you name that you currently use haha =).
Here is the sign for the store, I know my hand writting sucks haha but I use the key chain you bought for me as the little character( I know it sucks haha).  I took away the graduation hat and added a chief hat =).  Cool beans right.

Here is the front of the store this drawing took so long haha because I reall wanted it to make it look nice, but then I messed up the door haha.  My bad but imange the cafe with out the door haha and a fatter door.  I try to make it simple as possible for my baby because she loves the simple things.  On the other window I wanted to write a simple life or something like that haha, but I wasn't sure so I left it blank for you to fill in =).

Here is the counter and I put up the cute black or white board so we can write our menu. =) and I think you don't like this style because it not cute but it all I can think of for now haha I hope you like it. 
I really like the idea of a bakery/ cafe now where we can live a simple life and be happy and smile everyday and talk to customers.  Where all our old and new friends can come to eat and relax.  I love the idea a lot now.  I want it to come true more and more when ever I think about it.   I will post a new idea or picture every week ok so that when the time comes to build our cafe we have so many ideas here to look at =).  I hope you enjoyed this I really wanted to change up the mood since the past couple have been sad and full of things that isn't really us.  I hope you smile and call me dumb dumb.
Love,
your dumb dumb
P.S. cool beans right?

My first real letter to you

Dear Kirby,

This past week hasn't been our best week, has it? We went through a lot and yesterday especially was something we haven't been through in awhile.  We had a small disagreement and I understand it wasn't the happiest moment in our relationship, but it seems like it has really affected the way you think about what we will become.  And I am begging you not to think that way, the good in our relationship, out weights the bad and to me it means that we have something worth fighting for.  I know that long distance relationships are hard to deal with and your scared of getting hurt.  But you know me we enough to know that I won't hurt you, and you know that I have worked so hard just to get you back here with me.  I know you area a simple girl, who just wants to settle for the ok.  I understand that, it is safe and you know you won't get hurt.  What is hard is knowing that I am only 20 and still in college, and because of this i can't support you the way you want, I can't give you your own room yet, I can't give you everything you want.  But you know its only going to be like this for a short time.  We both know that.  When we were talking today you said that you were to old to go back to school, but I completely disagree (not for my selfish reasons).  But I think right now would be the best time to return to school now because you just stop becoming a student so you have many of your school habits still.  Currently your working for your brother, I know you enjoy being with your family but think about it you can even go to school and learn how to improve your business.  I know my baby the best and I know she doesn't want to work in a stressful environment where people back stab one another.  I no way am I pushing you towards that idea.  I know it would make you unhappy and I never want that for you.  All I am asking of you is to try something, even if you don't know what you want to do.  I know this letter is probably not going to motivate you in anyway possible.  But I just want to get my feels out to you.
I think it is way to early to end our relationship, we had to minor disagreements and we can't let it stop us ok.  You know how this would affect me if anything happened to us babe.  I'm not even close to ready to start talking about these dumb things.  Don't feel bad because I am always sacrificing things, I do it because I want to.  I want to do all these things to show you I am that guy you can spend the rest of our life with.  I know moving here can be a scary thought because your friends and family will not be here.  I know that eventually a good portion of them will graduate and move.  But please don't say you don't want to come back because of that love.  I know you want to be with your friends and family and who wouldn't.  You know I have told you over and over, but I would gladly try moving to Asia if you weren't happy here.  I am trying so hard to show you what I would do for you, I try to convince you with everything I have and I am trying everyday.  Everyday I try to stay up as long as possible and wake up as early as possible so that we can spend at least 6 hours a day.  I know you probably don't love me, but I am asking you to try to put your heart into this relationship and I promise you I won't hurt you.  I promise you I will not let you get hurt once or feel bad about yourself.  I will shoulder all the pain or troubles, because that is what someone does for the person they love.  They sacrifice and the give until they have nothing left to give.  I am not asking much from you except for trusting in us.  That is all I ever wanted.  I know you don't want me to work so hard for you but let me please, I know it makes you feel bad.  But that's not my intention, I just know your not ready to love me yet so I have to do the work to convince you that we can have a great future together.  There will be many tough times ahead of us, but we can't give up, ok =).  I know it is the easy way out, but the this that are difficult are things worth fighting for.  Please Please Please don't say those words again ok?  I know your scared of the future, I am too love, but I know if its with you all this work now will be worth it. So let me apologize again for ever putting doubt in your mind I want you to erase it ok.  Lets start fresh and work together for a happy future.  I know your not sure, but let me bring you back for your birthday as planned and we will disgust this when I am holding you, having dinner at our favorite places or walking down our favorite streets. I  have been looking forward to you return and I know all your friends are too so just have faith in me a little longer and I won't disappoint you=). I intent to marry you (YEA I SAID IT HAHAHAHA) so give me the chance to show you how much I care, and I know its going to bother you because you will say ohhh but I feel like I am not doing enough.  You know what I say whoooooooo careessssssssssss, =) when your ready you will do those things.  I know you will because when you are here you put me over your friends I know you did, I saw it 1000x of times.  So let this be my reply to your sacrifice ok and I will tell you I going work harderhaha.  So when it's your turn again you will say wow I can't beat that because no one has ever loved anyone so much. 

Love you more than ever,
Chin Fong

P.S. I know I get repetitive when it comes to expressing my feelings and I ask of you to please bare with me.  And wtfffff your post sucked today hahaahahahaha take it down please it hurts me when I read it.  And omg I thought we ended happy last night haha, I thought it was going to be a happy post not some mean one lol =P.